The weekend games here went ok. We lost 3-0 on friday and I played well at times. Sunday I played Defense because we had some guys out of the lineup and I played well. We won 1-0 against a team that is really good and actually won the league last season. I have now played 8 games and have 0 points. It is extremely frustrating to me because I know that I am better than that. I am trying to relax and tell myself that it is a long season and that once I find my groove and figure out what will make me successful at this level then it will come, and I know it will but my patience is short and the coach here is riding me pretty hard. He asked me why I was so fast without the puck and so slow with it. Which I kind of laughed at because I know I am a fast player all the time. But I know that I am not playing with the presence that I need to be playing with when I have the puck. I am being cautious to make a mistake and in turn and making slow decisions. I am not getting the ice time that I want or think I deserve so that is part of my frustration although I remind myself that I have to make the most out of what is given to me and I can not control the coach or his decisions. I guess I feel like the next step to success is right here for me to grab and I just can’t get my hands on it but I know if I do then my career has even bigger days ahead, if that makes any sense at all. Anyway, we have no games this week so it will give some extra time for practice, which I dominate by the way, but can’t seem to bring that to the games.